suspicions confirmed!

I have been feeling fairly loose for a few weeks now, like I needed a small fill. But I didn't want to do anything about it until I felt another one of my naturally very tight periods. The only problem with that is that they aren't predictable!

Yesterday, I started to suspect I was beginning to get tight again. Today confirms that. Yup, I'm pretty tight. I can drink liquids, but I sure don't feel like drinking much. I take some of my green smoothie and I feel full. Or maybe it's not fullness I'm feeling so much, but rather tightness.

Isn't that the same thing you wonder? Well, most of the time it is, but I'm not convinced it's the same thing all of the time. And that's the purpose of this post.

I woke up this morning with hunger pangs. Like, legit hunger feelings. Not head hunger, but a feeling I haven't felt in awhile of valid hunger. But I remembered beginning to get tighter yesterday, so I was a little peeved by that if I were truly hungry.

So sure enough, I start off with some yogurt today and it's slow going, but that's good. And then I make my morning green smoothie and I can barely drink any. Yup, sure enough, I'm going through a very tight period right now.

This is a good thing. I could stand to lose a pound or two as long as I can not do stupid stuff like eat lots of ice cream and end up maintaining my weight. =P

But what's really annoying me is that I also feel legit hunger! Well, I don't feel as much hunger now as I did when I first woke up because I've had some food, but even though I'm kind of tight from some green smoothie (and now I've had one spoonful of my bean salad, which is basically a mushie), I don't feel satisfied. Isn't that part of how the band works? That you feel satisfied after eating a small amount of food? My doctor keeps on mentioning that. But what I have felt over and over again every time I get this naturally tight, I rarely ever feel satisfaction.

Part of is head hunger, I know that for sure, but part of it is something going on inside my body. I just don't know what. And if you know me at all, I get pretty discombobulated when I don't understand what's going on with me. ;) But even if I don't understand what my body is doing, at least I know this is a consistent pattern with me. If I'm luck, I'll be able to use this knowledge to more easily fight the head hunger. That maybe I can just mentally and emotionally tough it out during this tight period because I know that in a few days I'll be fairly loose again and instead I'll have to battle to keep the food out of my mouth if I want to lose instead of maintaining.

Does that make sense? I don't know. I'm too lazy (and busy at work, ha) to go back and proofread right now. ;)